When my brother died, I screamed everywhere. I screamed in my car, my house, anywhere I could and for up to an hour at a time. I read the memoir, "Once More we Saw Stars," and felt a companionship to the writer as he described his screaming sessions after he lost his two year old … Continue reading He Died on a Bed.
A lady bug flew into my room. It was 2017 in NYC. It was September. I had that broken heart and the lady bug didn't belong there. The noises were loud. The smell of cement and rain filled the air. She was there though. She sat on my finger. She gave me hope. It … Continue reading NYC Lady Bug
Yesterday I felt so sad but had no idea why. Now I know. The ocean. I went to her yesterday. It was largely an accident but somehow I ended up on a beach. The ocean was trying to tell me that my wedding anniversary would have happened the next day; today. She wanted me to think about … Continue reading My Wedding Anniversary?
"I don't want to let the memories go." "But you were never made to live in a memory."
I saw him yesterday. It has been six months. Fernando, the ex. I was speaking to a good friend about what the experience of seeing him might be like. She offered maybe I would think to myself, "I am so glad this didn't work out." That wasn't exactly what happened. I could feel him walking … Continue reading I saw my Ex-Husband
I wish there was somewhere you could go that would make you want to thrive. There was a quote I read once, "There is a world within us all." That world was created when you were a child. There were many factors that grew your inner-world. Your parents, your friends, your school, your teachers, your … Continue reading Hurt People Hurt People
It's a word I play around with. I used to hear the word out loud and it felt like I was cursing. The word "divorce" feels heavier to me than the word death. Divorce. I went through a stage where every person I met I would say, "Hi, I'm divorced." It was my identity for … Continue reading Divorce Thinkings